Chiam =D

Was talking to a friend that day and, on hindsight, i think i posed a most impossible question to that particular friend. I actually asked one person to set aside all the realistic considerations and consider if another is the one that he/she would want to be with. Alot of hemming & hawing went on but an conclusion was reached in the end. I don’t doubt my friend (hehe) but i feel that to answer that question would require that person to be really truthful to himself. Hmmm. So how truthful can a person get when faced with that question? For one, I know I’ll have one hell of a time trying to figure that question out coz being as realistic as I am, how can I see another person with just his face value? But I daresay that if I am given a bit more time and the right feeling (another key note here =P ), I’ll be able to do that.

Ok’d. Enough of the emo stuff that my mind conjure, let’s get back to inanities =D

Trainings stepped up already and somehow for this year, CNY is losing it’s significance in my life. It just doesn’t seem to have a presence in my calendar and the presence is replaced by school & trainings and what all of them culminates in: exams (read graduation) & races (respectively). My penchant for outcomes (positive ones) is seemingly rearing its head over here, not really a enjoy-the-process kind of person, you know? Hahs.

Tralalalas. Let’s move on to more inane stuff: I had aglio olio (@ marina square’s food court) that is so much like the ones that I cook for myself back at my old house today! In comparison to those times (sec school & JC), I cook so much lesser now and the things that I cook are far less challenging than ever (though I can bake more challenging stuff now). And it all points to the schedule that I have now. Sometimes, it leaves me quite drained to the point of not wanting to boil water for the cup noodles at all and instead, drown myself with milo and biscuits. Haha. Or maybe I just got lazier. Heh. I can’t wait to eat it again! Hahahaha. That is prolly the glutton in me talking really loudly. =D

Ok. Another abrupt end to an entry but I really can’t help it. Lids are heavy and my brain wants to stop working for the day. Soooooo, till the next one! =D

Lightning don’t strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
Felt the angels cry
True love’s a gift
But we let it slip
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

Gawd. I really need to clean out my closet and re-inventorise them all. Or at least familiarise myself with what i have in my closet so i can actually at least wear them out once and not leave them to rot in the wardrobe, untouched & forgotten, for 1 year!

Cleanout will begin as and when i can this coming week! And i realise, there aren’t that many nooks and crannies to clean at this house. I just need to remove the stuff in the drawers & cupboards and wipe/light scrub and wipe the knicks knacks and i’m all done!

Can’t wait to complete these chores! Hahaha.

On another note, i think my time trial was damn fail to the max. Argh. Got to improve like ALOT. Omg. Annoyed with myself with the lack of progress and especially the lack of composure for such personal trials. Yea. Don’t be shocked, i do get flustered sometimes too. Zzzz.

I hate it when I know what i’m supposed to do and yet i do not do it properly. ARGH. *stabs myself* =((

Nvm. 再接再厉 =))

Chances lost are hopes torn out pages
And maybe this time

Chances are the fascination
Chances won’t escape from me
Chances are only what we make them
And all I need…

Speak, confess and confide.

Haven’t been really honest with myself too. Pfft.

My mind is strong. Such is its strength that i can convince myself to feel/behave otherwise.

Gawd. I think i’m too strong for my own good. HUR.

And one of the closest ones aren’t flying tmr anymore. Hmmm. I wished she could have flown though (even if i’ll be lacking her absent presence for months). I believe anyone should be given a chance to do what they set out to do. I wouldn’t even say, follow your dream, coz dreams don’t usually materialise unless you are in lalaland.

And, told you, my next one is an emo one. Hahs. But now, i am too bushed to continue emoting. So till the next one =)

Well you are the one, the one that lies close to me.
Whispers, “Hello, I’ve missed you quite terribly.”
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly.

=))

And i realised my posts are really getting substance-less. More emo posts coming your wayyyyy =P

it’s half timing and the other half’s luck =))

What do you do when you no longer can express yourself as freely as you used to?

Haiz.

I think it’s time for a new haven.

Time for straight talking and direct shooting.

I need to talk to someone before i totally implode on myself.

Penang was great. 4 Golds & 2 bronzes. I daresay we should have something from the 200m event. I refuse to accept being 4th coz with the amount of emotion & effort put into that 1st and last 200m finals, we were champs in our own way and right.

And i’m still drafting what i wanna say to all of them. Damn. Taking far too long.

I know i’m behind for the ARS thing. I suppose everyone has consulted him. Somehow, regrettably, it’s always right behind db stuff in my to-do-list.

DB DB DB. For pride and glory, no matter how temporal, how fleeting, i feel that it somehow is worth it, no?

Blood. Sweat. Tears. Nowhere along the climb of the corporate ladder will you experience the very essence of those 3 things, right?

Don’t want regrets. And definitely won’t regret later.

No regrets. I only do repairs and take remedial actions because i believe that i can and will do it.

Remember, or not?

Life ain’t fair even when given 1st mover advantage and you still don’t win the game (then again, who decides that by letting you have 1st mover advantage, it’ll be a fair game?).

It ain’t fair when you are travelling nicely and smoothly on this road and this dumb driver decides to cut into your lane and annoy you for that split second just because he/she simply thinks the lane that he/she was travelling on isn’t moving as fast as he/she could possibly want it move.

Ohwells. I think i’m just plain selfish & whiny and so is everyone who claims that life isn’t fair.

But at the very least when i don’t get what i want and after the complaining & whining i’ll do my best to get it back sometimes. But i have to say, situation and time has to allow me to do it or else, nothing that i do can be good enough to get everything back.

I’m an opportunist. And i have the endurance. So i can do it if i push myself hard enough.

Sooo, all in all you got to make the most out of the fair parts of life. A little hard to link this post up coz my thoughts are so disjointed and distracted.

Got to stay focused.